It's been on my heart for sometime to tell my story. My faith story. This has nothing to do with our adoption, per say, but it has everything to do with God...who eventually led us to adopt.
I'm writing my story on the cuffs of having been to the Brooks House recently. It is a shelter for women who have no where else to go, who have been abused and or addicted something and have nothing and nowhere to turn. We chose that place as our "mission project" in my small discipleship group. In my mind I thought we would go there and share with them our stories and "bless" them and tell them about Christ. Instead, they shared their stories. Their stories of abuse, neglect, brokenness, addiction and loneliness. I was the one who was blessed. They were the ones who showed me Christ in a very real way. It was an incredible evening. After hearing their stories it made me realize even more how much we need to share our stories. No, I don't have a story like my new friend Felicia who was sold at 13 years old for prostitution, and then sold again for drugs at 17. I don't have that story, but I do have my story.
I can't share my story without sharing a little of my parents story. I was born in Albuquerque, NM. My parents met there while my Dad was driving through on his way from Tennessee to California, stopping along the way to make some money to get him to his next stop. It just so happened he stopped at my Grandpa's gas station looking for work. He met my mom there and 4 months later they married. Fast forward about 10 years and my brother was 5 and I was 10 months old. My Dad knew he needed to get back to TN, because the drugs and alcoholic lifestyle he was living wasn't good for our family. So we moved to TN to live near my other grandparents. My Mom started attending church with my Mamaw & Papaw and accepted Christ as her Savior. My Dad, having been an alcoholic, most of his young adult-adult life finally came to know Christ when I was 6 years old. At that moment our entire family tree changed. Had it not been for that event, I'm not sure where my brother & I would be today.
It was when I was 6 years old I knew 100% that God was real and that He had changed my Dad. There was a visible difference in him. He threw away all the alcohol and he became the Dad my brother and I needed. At 6, I knew God had changed my Dad and I had no doubts about how real Jesus is or who He was.
Then life changed dramatically because Dad wanted to start a ministry, a singing ministry. So we quickly became The Standridge Family Gospel Singers. My brother played the bass, my mom sang, dad sang and played guitar & I sang and played a mean tambourine! (ha!) So that was my childhood. Singing with my family from the time I was 6 years old until around 21 years old. We would sing nearly every weekend my entire childhood. To say I was at the church every time the doors were open was an understatement.
When I was 8 years old, I remember going to the front and thinking I had accepted Christ. But as I got older, I realized I didn't know him. I was a rebellious, typical teenager. I was a "good girl" but I didn't have it all together like I looked like I did. Finally at 17 years old I remember walking down to the front of the church having grabbed my Dad by the hand and telling him, I needed to be saved. I didn't have Jesus in my heart. My Dad lead me to Christ at that moment. We prayed a prayer together and I accepted Jesus as my Savior. Everyone I knew was shocked because I had stood up in front of the church and sang and I did all these things" in the name of Jesus." Obviously, I knew how to act the part.
Man looks at the outside, but God looks at the heart, and He knew my heart wasn't following Him.
So, fast forward about 13 years and I had a husband a baby a new house and everything on the outside looked all nice and shiny, but inside of me was dark. I felt nothing. I had everything I had ever wanted, but I wasn't happy. I was angry all the time, I was bitter about everything, I had lost all my joy. For really no "real" reason at all. I literally was living my dream, but I was in miserable.
I was sitting in church one Sunday thinking to myself something has got to change. I have got to do something, I am miserable. I literally thought to myself "I wish my friend, Deanna, was doing a bible study, because I would do that. I guess I should start reading my bible?!" Right after the service Deanna turned to me and said, "Hey, I'm doing this bible study/small group thing, you wanna join me?"
"YES!!!" I think I probably scared and shocked her with my response, but I knew right away God was calling me back home. I wasn't doing anything "wrong", but I wasn't living for Him and He was telling me to come back. I thought, "Ok God, this is you telling me to get back on track, I hear you loud and clear!"
I started getting into the word, learning really for the first time, EVER, how to study the Word, how to absorb and focus on scripture and praying on a daily basis. How to take that scripture and apply it. And the fire that was once there, started to rekindle. I enjoyed His word, I enjoyed church again. I was no longer just going through the motions of being a good little church girl. I got it this time! I understood what grace was and what love He had for us. I realized what it's like to walk with Jesus on a daily basis. I understood what it meant to surrender yourself to Him and it was all good.
I'm so thankful for that turn around in my life, because just a few short months of my "revival" and d time of growth we had a miscarriage. You can read more about that in previous posts. This was probably the hardest time I've ever went through. I knew I could get mad at God and turn away from Him or run to Him. I'm so thankful I ran to Him. It was during that time I learned to trust Him in all circumstances no matter if they seem unbearable or if they don't make sense to us. He always turns them for our good! Now, we are adopting a little one from China. You can read about His perfect timing here. Had it not been for that time of loss, grief and total dependence on Him, we wouldn't have this honor and privilege to be adopting. And I'm not sure if I would have learned His voice and learned to heed that voice had it not been for that time.
Through these last two years I have been growing and seen my family grow in their faith and walk with the Lord. No, it's not always easy, but nothing worth going after ever is.
Obviously my story isn't complete....but no one's is until we reach Heaven...so in the mean time I will just say...
To Be Continued....
So now I challenge you.....What's Your Story? You never know how it will impact someone else's life and ultimately show them Christ. Please feel free to leave your story in the comments. I would love to hear it. If you don't have a story, send me an email, I would love to talk to you more about how to start your story. Thanks for letting me share mine.
I was gently reminded this morning what I was doing on this very day last year. In my celebration of our Dossier being sent to China, I had forgotten the pain of this day. God reminded me today that His plans are perfect, His timing is perfect and He always and only wants what's best for us. He is a Good, Good Father.
It was this very day last year I was sitting with Jason in my OB/GYN's office waiting for the results of tests that were taken on me. Waiting to know whether this little baby inside of me would live or not. The doctor came in and by the look on her face we knew it wasn't good news. I could continue to carry this child until I miscarried naturally or go ahead and start the process because there was a 100% chance that this baby would not survive. I have no doubt God can do anything and miracles happen every day, but that was not His plan for us. That day was the hardest day of my life. It was March 17th, 2016. I will never forget that day. I was crushed. But in my weakness, He is made strong. In my sorrows, He gives me joy. I knew joy would come in the morning, I just needed to trust Him. I'll not say it was easy, or that I just accepted that I wouldn't be delivering my baby in October as planned, but His ways are higher than mine. He knew exactly what our family needed. I trusted Him to take care of us.
Now, fast forward one year to the day. We are adopting a sweet baby. Our Dossier is being sent to China one year after our lives were turned upside down. I love how God works. He always turns things for our good. I would never know the joys of adoption or what God has already taught me through this process had it not been for March 17th, 2016. I'm not saying that day isn't still hard, but I'm thankful for the joy in the morning. I'm thankful his His grace, mercy and love and that no matter what He has me. Always.
Just keep enduring friend, morning is coming!
So what does this mean for us? What is our next step? The next step is more waiting. But now we wait with anticipation of meeting our child. We wait for that file to come in with our precious China Baby on it. This waiting is fun. It's like the last few weeks before giving birth, yes it's hard, yes it's sometimes miserable, but it's also exciting! I don't know our exact timeline, because it all varies, but it's closer than it was 6 months ago. I know that much! ;-)
I'm most excited that our Dossier is done. Someone asked me what a Dossier was...well here's the official definition: "A dossier is a collection of documents that are necessary to meet the legal requirements for adoption from a foreign country as well as the immigration requirements of the U.S. Government." That includes everything from brand new birth & marriage certificates to US Immigration service forms from which we had to go to the immigration office to do the forms. This Dossier has taken us 6 months to complete. It's been a lot of running, waiting, filling out, waiting and more filling out. My friend Tausha, who has also adopted, said that paper cuts are the stretch marks of adoption! HA!! So true! But that part is over. Thank you, Lord!
We can almost see the finish line of this amazing journey. It's in our sights. We just can't lose focus now. We are coming little one!
Oh how true that verse is to the Harmon family today. Yesterday we received the news that we are approved and that one final paper we were waiting on (sometimes patiently, sometimes not) but it finally came! YAY! Thank you Lord! His grace is always sufficient, His timing is always perfect and His plans will not be thwarted. What's even better is it came on Jason's birthday, so we had even more reasons to celebrate! God just keeps showing us in those subtle ways this is His plan and it's been incredible.
So this was me today, at lunch dropping off that 3rd and final packet. I'm imagining this may be what it feels like when Tucker goes to Kindergarten this year. All the work, sweat, tears, errands, stress and LOVE going into that tiny little packet, just hoping it does exactly as you have prayed and hoped it would since the day you began. Yep, I could cry...so I will quickly move onto something lighter.
Next steps! So, our next step is...can you guess?! That's right, more waiting! Now we will wait to be matched up with our little China Baby. It's all in God's hands and (insert sigh here) I am TOTALLY good with that!
He started with us on the journey and He will be with us until we finish. What a comfort that is! Thank you for praying! Keep it up! It's working!
In my last post you learned we were trying to get our I-800A packet to the USCIS (United States Citizenship and Immigration Services) before December 23rd to get a discount. You can read about that chaos here. So we did! We got their notice of receipt on December 22nd! YAY! Then we waited for another letter stating when we could go to the immigration office to be fingerprinted for the government.
The letter came and our appointment was scheduled for January 19th at noon. That date ring any bells for anyone?! Well, it just so happened that day was special to our family because it was Tucker's 5th birthday! We were able to spend the whole day together getting our fingerprints done and celebrating Tucker.
This was our birthday fun. We ate at the Pancake Pantry in Nashville, went to Bass Pro and the Disney Store. All his choices. We had the best day. And now he's 5 and he reminds me every day that he's 5. Growing up is hard on Mama! Sigh......I digress.
So...now we are waiting on a particular form that the USCIS is going to send saying we are approved. That is all we need in order to complete our Dossier, in order to be matched with our little China Baby, in order to travel to China to pick up our China Baby, in order to become a family of 4. That's it....one piece of paper. We just need one more piece of paper. But it hasn't come. Hence the picture at the top of this post. "When you don't move the mountains, I'm needing you to move, I will trust in You."
That is where we are. Just waiting on the Lord's timing and trusting in His sovereign plan. I have no idea if the paper will be here today, tomorrow or if it's another 3 weeks, but I do know one thing, God's plan will not be thwarted. He absolutely choose this adoption path for us. I have no doubts of that, so with that comes trust, faith and patience in Him. Which are all hard at times. I've had to succumb to the idea that I'm not in control. (Ouch! Just typing that hurt a little) But God is in control! I no longer need to stress, worry, freak out or control this situation. It's almost silly to even try. God has this in His hands. His plan is perfect, His timing is perfect and His will is perfect. He knows exactly what we need, when we need it, even before we know we need it! Why worry! Why stress! Why try to control! I've realized once I turn it over to God, I have a sense of freedom and peace overwhelm me, and that's a much better feeling than stress and anxiety. Plus when I give it to God, I no longer take Excedrin Migraine like it's some sort of candy! (Truth!)
So in the meantime we are praying that form comes in....but trusting in Him to know the exact right timing. We want what He wants...and nothing less.
He's fighting for me...for our family...for our China Baby....all I have to do is be still.
USCIS & I-800A! What the heck is that!?! Funny you should ask because I really don't know either! All I know is we received an email yesterday saying our home study has been approved! YAY!!! In the same email was a note from our agency stating when we receive our home study in the mail, we need to fill out a few more papers and mail it to the United State Government. If we send it all in before the 23rd of this month, we would be saving $75. Ok, that sounds good. We love a discount! Here was the catch, we received the email on the afternoon of the 20th. Our home study agency was mailing us the home study packet that day. That did not give us much time to get the packet, fill out the papers and send it all in BEFORE the 23rd. So today, Jason met our social worker at her office in Murfreesboro (about 45 minutes out of the way) to get our home study packet. He then ran that to me at my office we both signed everything and he drove to the nearest Fed Ex to drop it off. If we got it there before 6:00 pm tonight, it would reach the USCIS by tomorrow! Fingers crossed! We made the 6:00 deadline and are now praying it gets to it's designated arrival before the 23rd! Come on, Christmas Miracle!
We were excited, but scrambling too! Hoping this gets out in time and makes it before the 23rd. Yes, $75 isn't ALL that much money in the grand scheme of this, but we also feel like we need to be good stewards of our funds, and if that means working extra hard and making a special trip then it was worth it.
Here is the mailer going into the Fed Ex overnight shipping station. With this mailer, next comes a few appointments and paperwork that will take at most about 90 days. After this we will be officially "logged in". The timeline is still a bit fuzzy, but we hope to be logged in by March. After that we will just be waiting to be matched with our little one. It seems this is moving quickly and it's so exciting! Even our agency consultant today said our process is moving a lot quicker than normal. I can only credit that to the Lord. I have no doubt our child is waiting in China right now and God is protecting him/her and giving that little one peace while he/she waits on Mom & Dad to come.
Soon little one!! We are working on it as hard as we can! I'm praying this is our last Christmas without our 4th member and the last Christmas you have to spend without your family.
Merry Christmas, Everyone!!
"Where are you in the process? When will you get your child?" Those are questions that I get asked it seems daily. In short, we are waiting. We hurried and scurried to gather documents and paperwork and my daily lunch hours were filled with errands and scrambling...and now we wait. We still have more paperwork to do to be officially "on the list", but for now we wait. This hurry up and wait is a tough business. Seems I do much better when I have a list to check off and I am the one to check those things off. But this is where I have to pass the baton. Like Hebrews 6:15 says "Having waited....I realized and obtained what God has promised" I paraphrazed, of course, but just knowing that patience is going to be rewarded with our precious little child, is something I can deal with. The only way to deal with it, really. We know God designed this entire plan and had His hand on it from the very beginning, even before we realized what His plan was! And now we wait on Him and His timing. There is beauty in the waiting.
Last Thursday evening I sent off our first mailer. You can read about that here. It was exciting, obviously. After I sent it off I felt a big relief. That part, that had taken me 2 months to complete, was taken care of. WHEW! That was last Thursday. More than a week later, on Saturday morning, at 4:00 a.m. I woke up and realized I never heard if the mailer made it! Our agency said they would let me know they received it, it was supposed to be there in two days, I heard nothing. I was wide awake. I laid there and tried to sleep. Thoughts and anxieties were creeping up on me. The "what if's" kept running through my head. "What if it didn't get there? What if it's still sitting in the FedEx box never having been delivered? What if I have to do all that paperwork over again? What if it ended up in Russia or something?" Yeah, that last one was not even a bit logical, but I was anxious and thoughts were spinning! I got up finally about 6:30 and emailed our agency, even though I knew they were closed for the weekend and I more than likely wouldn't hear back until Monday morning.
So what did I do with all this anxiety?! First, I panicked. Not a good idea. I did however put it to good use because I cleaned out my dresser drawers. I have been needing to do that for a while and what better time than at 7:00 a.m. on a Saturday morning! Before coffee!!! That is how much energy I had! Crazy!
Then once that was complete I realized where I really needed to lay my anxiety down, at the feet of Jesus. I texted some friends who I know are close to Jesus and asked them to pray. They all did. I prayed and read some verses that was sent to me and did my daily quiet time with Him. I felt a peace wash over me. It was calming, relaxing and I felt free. Free from the bondage of fear, anxiety, nervous energy and worry it all just fell right off. I was at peace. I knew God had taken care of that packet and He personally delivered it to where it was supposed to be.
That peace was truly a gift. I had an extremely busy weekend and I knew I didn't need for this to cloud my mind. That picture was sent to me from a new friend and it really helped. God gave me that gift of peace. Saturday passed.....Sunday passed. I hardly thought of my "terrible, awful, horrible" situation. The one that woke me up at 4:00 a.m. straight out of bed on a SATURDAY! The day I get to sleep in! God had taken it away so much that I didn't even remember it until last night at church a friend who I had asked to pray about it brought it up to me. I had forgotten about this thing that consumed me all Saturday morning! Thank you, Jesus that it no longer consumed me!
I let His peace rule over me and through me and all over me. Not saying this happens every time I feel anxious or worried, but this weekend was a win!
This morning, I received an email at 7:54 a.m. from our adoption agency saying they had received our packet and had already started the certification process. Thank You Lord!! You are the Prince of Peace and as my friend reminded me, Job 42:2 says:
I have no doubt this adoption is His plan for our family and no one or thing can prevent that from taking place. Not even a FedEx packet.
That is a HUGE relief to even type. Mailer one is in the mail! That just means the last two months of gathering documents, going to the sheriff's office for a background check, going to the doctor for a complete physical, calling and ordering new birth certificates, passports, marriage certificates, getting all of these said documents notarized, dated & completely filled out to perfection is done! WHEW! That is one check that I will gladly mark off the list. There were 29 documents in this packet and our blood, sweat & tears were on each one. Thankfully not literally because China would reject it, but figuratively...most definitely!
Now this doesn't mean we are finished with our Dossier. It just means step one is done. We have 2 other "mailers" we will need to send out and those luckily aren't as extensive as the first. Mostly just our home study papers and some other Chinese forms that are needed. Still highly important documents needed...but not so much on the errand end. Which let's be honest, took up most of our time!
This is me...loading our first mailer into our local Fed Ex box...praying everything gets to it's intended destination! You should have seen my face. There's a reason I didn't take a picture of it, and it's not just because I was trying to do some cool photo op with one hand and actually taking the picture with the other. (Mostly) But my face had one thousand emotions on it. Excitement, worry, anxiety, thrill, joy, impatience and annoyance! Mostly the annoyance was because we have no local Fed Ex pick up place with an actual person...and there was no way I was waiting any longer to mail this very important packet than I had to and Jason taking it to Nashville on MONDAY wasn't cutting it. Also because daylight savings time is dumb. This was 5:30 in the evening, people, it looks like MIDNIGHT! Come on!
But nonetheless, it was sent and prayed over and I have fully trusted God with our little labor of love packet. God is in control of everything, our country, our states, our communities, our families and our little packet that I so want to arrive in one beautiful piece. God is in control.
Now on to mailer 2!
I really don't like talking about money. It's just not my favorite subject. It's awkward and personal. That being said, we wanted to be as transparent as possible when it came to the fundraising and "money" part of this adoption. So many of you have supported us financially and we felt it only right to update on where we are with our goal.
So far we have done two big fundraisers. A HUGE yard sale the day before my birthday, October 1st and a t-shirt fundraiser that just closed up. Both of which were very successful. It was amazing to see people dropping off items to donate and people we didn't even know donating items! It was incredibly humbling. My bosses allowed me to use our parking lot for the sale, which made it an even bigger success because we are on the main street through town. We had everything including a kitchen sink! It was overwhelming. Some shoppers even donated their change to our adoption when purchasing. I keep saying it was humbling and it really was. Even still, just now, when I'm thinking about it I have tears, because of all the generosity of folks from our town and beyond, we were able to pay for our entire home study and our first two payments to our agency. It was incredible!
This day, according to my Fit Bit I walked 10,000 steps before 8:00 AM! It was a very tiring but hugely successful day!
We had friends who helped sort during the week and price items. They also showed up at 4:00 am on Saturday to help us get everything set up. We will forever be grateful to those people.
Our next fundraiser just finished. Oh my...what another huge blessing it was! We sold 134 of these t-shirts!!! I couldn't believe it! That is awesome!! Everyone who bought a shirt...THANK YOU!! Jason and I designed these shirts and we are so humbled by the response. God has truly blessed in this effort. We both thought this verse fit in so many aspects. We also are adopted by God, if you are a believer. He came for us. Now in His timing, we will go for our sweet China baby. We will come. We will not leave that child as an orphan. Thank you, Heavenly Father, for not leaving us as orphans! (No..I won't preach...but I could!) :-)
We aren't done yet, obviously, we have a ways to go! But, so far we have raised about 35% of our total goal which is $35,000. And we have had to pay about 20% of that total so far, for some "main" things, which includes agency & home study payments and such. That total doesn't include all the documents needed that we have had to order, passports and various expenses that we have taken care of. Luckily, it is not all due at one time and we are really working hard to do this debt free. We are feverishly saving money and cutting corners. Once our home study is complete, which we are hoping by the end of the month it will be, we can start applying for grants. We are working hard to be good stewards of our money, time, gifts and donations. Every penny donated is going towards bringing our little China baby home. People have already asked us, "Why does it cost so much?" The simple answer is that all babies cost a lot. But one thing we've reminded ourselves is that we are not "buying a baby" we are paying the people to help us get a baby. The agency, the home study, the Chinese Consulate, the orphanage, everything involved and every paper we have to sign costs. That is just the way this works. And our biggest comfort is knowing this is what God has called us to. We are reminded everyday that "He will supply all of our needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19 And He has already proven that to us.
Our hearts are so full!! THANK YOU! xiè xie - 谢谢
Several people have asked us, "What made you want to adopt and why China and how's it coming?" I started this blog a year ago thinking this would just be a cool place to post some of our little projects we like to do. Little did I know, that this would be the place I would share my heart and our story of love, loss and a new direction for our family.
Jason and I always knew we wanted more children. Tucker is absolutely amazing, obviously, he's ours and we are a little bias. We figured once he got to be around 4 we would start trying again for another little one. With Tucker's pregnancy I had an "issue" in the very beginning where I had to go to the ER in the middle of the night. It was horrific. I was 8 weeks pregnant and started bleeding heavily. We rushed to the ER, which was my first time to ever go to the emergency room, and waited there all night. We got there around 11:00 pm and finally got home around 7:00 am. After all that waiting we had no idea if our sweet little baby inside me was even alive. Finally they told us the baby was fine. They weren't sure what caused all the bleeding, but I had to be watched carefully. For the first 20 weeks of my pregnancy I felt like I was on pins and needles every time I went to the doctor. I wasn't sure what they would hear, if anything. Fast forward 4 years later and he's here, he's healthy and he is so loved. We now know what caused the bleeding was a miscarriage of his twin.
So fall of 2015 we decided Tucker needed to be a big brother. We had tried for 4 months with no luck. I prayed and prayed and it just wasn't happening. Finally, one morning, the test read positive! AHHH! So excited!! A bit apprehensive, but still this is what I had been dreaming of. Jason & I were thrilled. I was going to have an October baby! October is my favorite month, it's not only my birthday month, but it's just the best month. I mean, come on, leaves changing, pumpkins, crisp mornings, beautiful colors! Yeah, I was so excited to be having my own little pumpkin in October. We couldn't wait to tell our families we were going to be a party of 4! So we did! We told them at 8 weeks. We felt like with the issues early on in Tucker's pregnancy, we could use all the prayers we could get. They were so excited!! And we felt their prayers.
That following week I had a doctor's appointment. They said it looked like I wasn't as far along as I thought. I thought to myself, "I don't think you understand, I've been tracking everything, so I'm spot on!" After some more tests, they found out I had a miscarriage early on in this pregnancy. The baby just stopped growing at about 5 weeks. I know you mothers out there can relate, it doesn't matter if you are 9 days pregnant or 9 months, once that stick says positive, that is YOUR child and you are instantly in love. I was in love with this child growing inside me. When I heard those words, "miscarriage" I was heart broken. I lost a child I never got to meet. It was a very hard time, but I'm so thankful for a Good, Good Father who wrapped His loving arms around me and held me close during that time.
After a month of treatments, due to a doctor that is no longer my doctor, I finally had a D & C and could hopefully try again soon.
Once the healing took place, both physically and emotionally, the thought of having another child naturally just didn't feel right. It seemed like God just didn't have that in His plans for us. I had been in a bible study by Jen Hatmaker (if you don't know her, you need to. She loves Jesus and strives to be His hands and feet) and during that study I just became totally convicted. Her prayer was for God to give her a holy passion and I began praying that same thing. "God, give me a holy passion. Help me be your hands and feet. Show me how you want me to live." And through that, adoption came into my heart...very heavily. I mentioned it to Jason...his immediate response was "NO", not because he's against adoption, but just because it seemed like such a far reach for us and pretty much impossible. So I began praying for his heart and for mine to be sure this was coming from God and not just me. I've always wanted to adopt, especially internationally, but I never thought it would be possible. It's expensive, it's non-traditional, it's time consuming, it's expensive. Yes, I said expensive twice, because ya'll it is! But I began praying, seeking God and learning how to discern His voice above the rest.
Months passed and we were still praying.
We were able to visit our best friends over Labor Day weekend. They had just brought their daughter home from China in July. We were able to talk to them about the process. On the way up there for the visit Jason and I talked about adopting. He was still a no, because of all those reasons I said, oh and did I mention it's expensive!? Yes, well that was his biggest reason. Again, I prayed. And I didn't pray for God to change Jason's heart, I prayed that whatever God wants for us that Jason and I would be on the same page. We both would agree to the answer God has chosen for us. We both prayed that prayer. We both wanted what God has for us. And we both prayed that God would reveal Himself to us in His timing and in His way on what His plans for us were.
I like to think a miracle happened in that weekend. On Friday when we left for the visit, Jason was sayig, "No, I just don't think we can adopt, I will pray about it, but I don't think we can." On Monday, on our way back home, he was saying, "Yes, this is what God wants for us." So immediately I thanked God for answering our prayer and I began researching adoption agencies.
We both felt called to China. Once I felt God calling us to adopt, I began researching different countries, including domestic, and Jason and I knew God was saying China. I won't get into all the details of the China program, but it suited our family and we both feel like our child is in that country.
We prayed and found a wonderful agency to use and our home study agency was a God send as well. We have seen God's hand over this entire process. It's been miraculous already and we are just in the beginning stages. We still have a long while to go before we travel, and right now we are getting all of our documents in order for the Dossier. That is all the important papers the US and China need to have in order for us to be in their system and we can be "logged in". We ask for continued prayers as we journey on. Thank you all for your support! I will keep you posted...until then...I'll say,用爱和祈祷 (Yòng ài hé qídǎo) which means with love and prayers in Chinese.
Harmon Party of 4