Last Thursday evening I sent off our first mailer. You can read about that here. It was exciting, obviously. After I sent it off I felt a big relief. That part, that had taken me 2 months to complete, was taken care of. WHEW! That was last Thursday. More than a week later, on Saturday morning, at 4:00 a.m. I woke up and realized I never heard if the mailer made it! Our agency said they would let me know they received it, it was supposed to be there in two days, I heard nothing. I was wide awake. I laid there and tried to sleep. Thoughts and anxieties were creeping up on me. The "what if's" kept running through my head. "What if it didn't get there? What if it's still sitting in the FedEx box never having been delivered? What if I have to do all that paperwork over again? What if it ended up in Russia or something?" Yeah, that last one was not even a bit logical, but I was anxious and thoughts were spinning! I got up finally about 6:30 and emailed our agency, even though I knew they were closed for the weekend and I more than likely wouldn't hear back until Monday morning.
So what did I do with all this anxiety?! First, I panicked. Not a good idea. I did however put it to good use because I cleaned out my dresser drawers. I have been needing to do that for a while and what better time than at 7:00 a.m. on a Saturday morning! Before coffee!!! That is how much energy I had! Crazy!
Then once that was complete I realized where I really needed to lay my anxiety down, at the feet of Jesus. I texted some friends who I know are close to Jesus and asked them to pray. They all did. I prayed and read some verses that was sent to me and did my daily quiet time with Him. I felt a peace wash over me. It was calming, relaxing and I felt free. Free from the bondage of fear, anxiety, nervous energy and worry it all just fell right off. I was at peace. I knew God had taken care of that packet and He personally delivered it to where it was supposed to be.
That peace was truly a gift. I had an extremely busy weekend and I knew I didn't need for this to cloud my mind. That picture was sent to me from a new friend and it really helped. God gave me that gift of peace. Saturday passed.....Sunday passed. I hardly thought of my "terrible, awful, horrible" situation. The one that woke me up at 4:00 a.m. straight out of bed on a SATURDAY! The day I get to sleep in! God had taken it away so much that I didn't even remember it until last night at church a friend who I had asked to pray about it brought it up to me. I had forgotten about this thing that consumed me all Saturday morning! Thank you, Jesus that it no longer consumed me!
I let His peace rule over me and through me and all over me. Not saying this happens every time I feel anxious or worried, but this weekend was a win!
This morning, I received an email at 7:54 a.m. from our adoption agency saying they had received our packet and had already started the certification process. Thank You Lord!! You are the Prince of Peace and as my friend reminded me, Job 42:2 says:
I have no doubt this adoption is His plan for our family and no one or thing can prevent that from taking place. Not even a FedEx packet.